You might need these pants. You know when you buy something but don’t know if you’re going to wear it all the time or not, but you get it, and then you end up wearing it all the time? These Grandma pants are it for me lately. They are so comfy, have pockets, and spark joy when I put them on. Also, I love this top. It’s great for spring, light, kind of fun, but not too much fun.
Also, concerning my last post…if I say that I don’t like fashion anymore and I have been wearing the same silk pants from Zara for a week…that means I am spiraling back into my deep well of depression and mind fuckery (as my therapist likes to call it.). If you are my friend, you need to find me and take me to Nordstrom; let me buy myself a chai latte and a pair of shoes…maybe even a lipgloss or two. Tell me a story or some inappropriate jokes.
I am feeling much better now…I took myself to Nordstrom! What do you do to help yourself when you’re feeling down? Hopefully, if you were having a hard time, you’re feeling better because Spring is finally here!
I have been away for a bit! Truthfully, every time I go to work on my blog…a part of me is like…I don’t know if this is the direction I want to be going in…..I think I am going through…let’s not call it a mid-life crisis but maybe more of a mid-life awakening. Somedays I think…I don’t really care about clothes like I use to…I feel like sometimes I am trying to be an old version of myself that doesn’t really exists anymore. I am trying to figure out…am I depressed? Or is the wind calling me in a different direction? I don’t want to take pictures of myself wearing clothes…it feels…painful? Also, full disclosure I have been wearing on repeat a pair of silk pajama pants from Zara and a white tank top for about a week straight now. So maybe that’s a sign…..maybe it’s not…I am going through some major life transitions so maybe that’s all it really is. Life…am I right? Probably a good thing we walk into it more ignorantly than not. Or we would be like hell no….I refuse! I will not get on that ride!
I hear all these people in their 30s giving advice…and I am like ha ha you have no bleeping clue what you are talking about. How can you give relationship advice if you’ve just been in a series of bad ones? How can you give marital advice if you have never been married? How can you give advice on parenting if you don’t have kids? Maybe enlightenment is getting to a place where your like…plugging into your own intuitive voice and blocking out all the noise….that’s it…that’s what it is…true enlightenment.
So here is a cute top and some bracelets in the meantime while I sift through the pieces and try to put them back together…like do I want to glue this piece here…or should I just throw it in the trash and go buy a whole set of plates? Are you following what I am putting down? I think I want to have more of a purpose…and I am trying to figure that all out….
I hope your having a great day and have more of a sense of direction than I do at the moment! ha ha.
If I find myself needing to do business this is one of the only things I want to be wearing. Speaking of business…I have been trying to narrow down a hero product for the brand I am starting. This week I went to a manufacturing plant and it was really fun. I learned a lot…it kind of reminded me of the Jelly Belly factory in California…but it wasn’t the Jelly Belly factory. I told the man that was touring me around and we had a good laugh. I wish I could work on my projects more full time…but I have to honor where I am right now in my life…so I work on them when I can.
Don’t forget to laugh this week…because at the end of the day…it makes all the hard things more bearable.
This necklace sparks serious joy…do I personally believe in extraterrestrial life? It doesn’t matter…I will tell you what I do believe in this necklace. Also, this notebook and smart pen….I got this about a week ago and I don’t want to be dramatic…but it’s changed my life. I feel like a part of me that went missing for a longtime just got reclaimed. There is just something about pen to paper that feels right. I type in my notes app all the time…but I feel like things get lost…like they don’t stick in my head. Something about pen to paper…but its recording and saving to the moleskin app in my phone just feels so right. It’s worth it…especially if you love to write.
This dress makes me excited for spring. Even though I feel like where I am living it might never come. Like ever….
It’s been really busy here…I am listing my house and getting it ready to sell. Turns out when you keep putting all the things in your house down in the basement in that one room…you are eventually going to have to face those demons. I have been facing them head on this week. Lot’s of omg I hate myself for keeping this…and not a lot of yoga or meditation happening over here. So many life changes happening right now it can at times feel a bit overwhelming. Hopefully you are doing more yoga and meditation than I am…and you don’t have that one room…but if you do..it’s ok…your ok…it’s going to be ok!
This dress is pretty…I love a backless dress, I am sure I already mentioned this..many times. Oh and reporting back on the bra..I think if you have to wear a bra..it’s an option but what about just not wearing one? Just a thought. Mented has some really great names for their lipgloss colors….Send Nudes, Pink About Me, Berry Me, Mauve Over, and # One Cran. There really is no better play than word play. I kind of want to start a line of lipglosses just so I can name and wear them.
So on my last post I said I was going to share something that I probably shouldn’t…so glad I slept on that one. OMG, I am not sharing that…what is wrong with me?! Whew…I feel like I really just dodge my own personal bullet.
I mean..I guess I could tell you how it popped in my head. I was thinking about the John Mayer interview he did with Kelly Rizzo on her podcast Comfort Food. Which was a really good interview..talking about loss and grief…it’s worth a listen. John Mayer said his personal kink is reliability then it got me thinking what was mine…and I thought it’s probably physical touch….and being around someone who is good for your nervous system..like they are good at regulating their emotions. What is yours? It’s kind of fun to think about.
Also, I can only post a couple times a week here for a bit…I have another project I am working on and I am realizing I have to pick one to really focus on if I want to execute it well…which is hard for me because I get distracted really easy..and I have so many ideas. I am learning the best way to figure things out is to take action and then you know with doing..what works and what to follow.
Let’s have a moment of silence for this crochet dress….
It’s like the crochet blanket on your Grandmas couch growing up…but fitted and cute and you can wear it now as an adult. I like the thought of wearing Birkenstocks with this dress….they just feel like they should be in a long term loving relationship together.
I am really getting into beauty products lately….I have been ordering, sampling…having some fun testing things. I am starting to realize…I am kind of a weirdo and things I think are fun..are not what most people think are fun.
That brings me to the Wayne Dyer books I have been listening to this weekend. I remember Sara Blakely the founder of Spanxs saying her Dad gave her his tapes growing up and she wouldn’t have started Spanxs without listening to his tapes. Then I was in my therapist office and she had a deck of cards in the waiting room and they are a bunch of his quotes.
I think I like him. He said, never tell yourself you don’t belong. You are exactly where you are suppose to be in this moment in time, born into the family you were suppose to be born into…I remember Brene Brown saying something similar to this in terms of belonging.
Another big take away is living with intention that there are seven faces of living with intention. They are creativity, love, kindness, beauty, expansion, receptivity, and abundance. That we aren’t what we do but we are our being. So be creative, be love, be kindness…so on an so forth…you get the gist right?
Another thing he said is life is infinite and if life is infinite this is not really life. I don’t know..I think I might have to sit with this one for a bit…maybe do mushrooms….just kidding.
I have done mushrooms once in my life..and I had the most unpleasant experience..I was in high school and I went into I think they call it the M hole. It was like..I was in this really bad dream I wanted to get out of and I couldn’t. Actually…it was a reoccurring dream I had after my Dad died. I was in this parking lot…it was dark outside and the pavement was wet and I was looking for my Dad under all these cars and I couldn’t find him and I was so terrified and panicked. That is the exact M hole I went into that night…and it was horrible. I am actually glad I had this experience because it scared me from ever doing any type of drug again…it probably saved my personality from multiple stints in rehab…and who knows where I would be right now. Was this an overshare? Maybe…I am not sure. I have another overshare…I will save for my next post.
Who am I to judge pleats? I do find myself putting on more pleated pants these days than I ever thought I would. I do not yet own pleated jeans…but I soon will. I think I will order this entire look after I publish this post. Maybe I will indulge in a little emotional shopping today. It feels like a perfect Saturday for this.
So I finally decided my New Years goal…a little late..but here we are. I want to start meditating and doing yoga every morning….ok maybe five mornings out of the week. That’s what it is…I am stacking it on top of things I have already been doing. This morning I did yoga and I feel so good after. I need to do more things that help clear my mind and make me stronger. So yoga and meditation feels like it’s it for me this year. I already do them but I struggle with consistency and I want to be more consistent. I am really loving the Alo classes you can do online. The class I did today was called “Be the light.”
I also want to start writing more songs just for fun. Not to release them..but just because it’s fun and I like having a creative outlet. I was talking to a friend and the only time I really get into “flow” state is when I am playing the piano…or figuring out a song on the guitar….or writing. So I want to do more things like this. Sometimes I think maybe I should make it more of a creative pursuit…but I am still pondering on this. Oh wait..I do get into flow dancing too.
What things put you in a flow state? I heard those are the things you should be spending your free time on. It’s great for your overall well-being.
What are your goals this year? You don’t need a new year to start new goals…as Tara Brach says, “You can start fresh at any moment.” I love this idea.
In honor of Beyonces new country music…these boots feel like a smart move. Not to worry if the price point is too high….Zara will have them knocked off in a couple of weeks…watch for them…ha ha. I love suede boots…I just do…always have and always will.
I LOVE a backless top…..this one is so pretty. So I saw a bra that has adhesive on the side to wear with backless tops…I am so curious…would this be comfortable? I will order one wear it and report back. Ok happy Monday.
These pajamas are really comfy. I also do love these underpinnings…so pretty. I have been in LA the last few days…it was sunny the first day…and the last day. I love California I will even take it with the rain. When I lived there I loved the rain..I do think it rained more the few days I was there than the entire time I lived there.
While I was there I had a few meetings. I have been thinking for awhile and working on starting a brand of my own. I am excited for the next year…I will share what I have been working on here soon.
It’s the last day of January and as they say….it really was a long year…but we made it! Love you more..even though it’s definitely not a competition. This black and white dress is fifty percent off..there aren’t a ton of sizes left but you could probably find it other places on the interweb. I love dresses like this..light, breezy, easy. I like clothes that feel like I am barely wearing anything? You?